Mother’s Day
I truly can't believe it but it's already time for Mother's Day again. The year has gone by so quickly but it has also brought so many changes.
Last year my Happy Mother's Day post was about my own mother and the importance of a mother's support and understanding for her child in their recovery.
This year I wanted to talk about how much my own role of a mother has improved now that I am further into my addiction recovery.
Maybe I’m Not Really an Addict
Just try and tell me that you haven't had that thought before...anyone, no one, ok then. Good, it's not just me. Our minds are so f'd up with addictive thinking that we actually try and fool ourselves into believing the thought that possibly we weren't as bad as we made out to be. We must have over reacted because we went today without drinking and it wasn't too hard.
Change Is Inevitable
You know what is weird? In a professional sense I welcome change. I'm open to procedure changes and I stay positive and try to keep others positive. Why then, in my personal life do I sometimes get so sad about change?
This topic has come up in my head tonight because I was reading a post by The Junkie's Wife called Zombie Love which was talking about her missing some of the way things used to be. Me, already being down tonight (as seen in this The Write Thought Post called Feelings Suck Sometimes) was brought to tears over this post.
Sometimes I just get a little overwhelmed when I think about how much in my life has changed. I don't give into thinking about this often because it usually ends up with me feeling sad but tonight...it has gotten the best of me.
I figured the healthiest thing for me to do would be to write about this. Lucky you...you get to read about it.
Are You Still Keeping Secrets In Your Recovery?
"They Say" that a huge part of addiction recovery is un-burdening yourself of all those "secrets" that you keep inside because of the fear of judgment. I guess this goes along with Step 5 of the 12 Steps. You admit to your higher power, yourself, and another human being the exact nature of your wrongs.
The purpose of this step is supposed to be about openly acknowledging the positive while committing to work at rectifying your negatives. I do understand the purpose of it, I guess I'm just NO WHERE near being ready for this type of outward honesty. I'm not saying I'll never be there, just not right now.
It seems that I'm not alone in my unwillingness to admit my secrets to another human beings. I have found some sites recently who's main purpose is to let people anonymously admit their secrets...both good and bad.
One of THOSE Days…Getting Through Tough Days In Recovery
So, you know THOSE type of days. Everything that could go wrong does go wrong down to the tiny things like driving away from the drive through to realize that they gave you a flavored iced coffee instead of the coffee flavored iced coffee that you wanted and needed...desperately.
So on a day when all those little things combined with a few big things start to pile up, how do you get through? That is, how do you get through with out the old standby solution of smoking or drinking or snorting your troubles away...for a little while.
Diabetes And Addiction Are A Lot Alike
I'm going to catch some shit about this article...I can already tell. There are going to be people who are suffering from Diabetes reading this, thinking that I am insulting them by comparing addiction to diabetes. But hear me out.
Breathing A Sigh of Relief
I have been going on for a couple of posts about my inability to talk about some stuff that has really been bothering me. Well, it is with a huge sigh of relief that I tell you that I was finally able to open up about these issues (the details of which I won't bore you with). I should have done it sooner.
I still had to be dragged kicking and screaming into the conversation but once I was in it... I was so glad I was. Things are not magically fixed but I feel a hell of a lot better now that I've gotten a few things off my chest. Funny how that works huh?
Putting It All Out There
Lately I've been trying to find some ways of publicizing my site. I'm finding it's not that easy with a site that focuses on addiction recovery. But I was able to find a pretty cool site that let's you do your own blog reviews
Hey Look at My Narcotics Anonymous Key Tag, I’m a Drug Addict
Anyone who has gone to a Narcotics Anonymous meeting knows that just as they do in Alcoholics Anonymous they celebrate lengths of sobriety. There is just one difference. Instead of giving you a nice little chip that you can keep in a private place and be proud of like you get in Alcoholics Anonymous, you get a key tag. A florescent colored, sometimes glow in the dark, hey look over here, key tag.
Accept The Things I Cannot Change
I was thinking about the part of the serenity prayer that says "grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change".
Now, I'm not going to try and fool you into thinking that I go to NA/AA meetings all the time by talking the talk.
But, I do want to point out that there are a lot of things that I took away from my time in NA/AA that I find useful in my everyday life.
One of the things that I feel that I've struggled with has been the whole accepting the things I cannot change. Rationally I know the importance of this acceptance but I have struggled to take that rational thought and put it to use in my life.
That was until I heard myself telling my son "you do what you can, the very best that you can, and that is all you can do". Boom! How simple. But could it truly be that simple to accept the things I cannot change?
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- Change Is Inevitable
- Are You Still Keeping Secrets In Your Recovery?
- One of THOSE Days…Getting Through Tough Days In Recovery
- Diabetes And Addiction Are A Lot Alike
- Breathing A Sigh of Relief
- Putting It All Out There
- Hey Look at My Narcotics Anonymous Key Tag, I’m a Drug Addict
- Accept The Things I Cannot Change
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