Sponsors tell you that writing things down helps, to journal the fight against addiction, having a record, getting things off your chest; this is another twist to doing that and I must say I like it.
Actor Colin Farrell has said that he has given up cigarettes but here is the interesting part: he wrote a break up letter to tobacco on the last day he would smoke.
I like it. Maybe this would be a fruitful exercise. Having journals of my addiction recovery has served to help me keep it together sometimes when I can see the signs of the spiral; isolation, negative thoughts etc. There have been times when I look back at my journals and I can see clearly step by step what happened whenever I had a relapse or even how I saw it coming and avoided falling into old destructive behaviors.
Because I am living on the upside, happy go lucky side of things, I decided I would write a humorous short poem to say I am done with you. (I am not a good poet so feel free to laugh at me, I am!)
Good bye Drugs and Alternate Reality
You reached for me, I reached for you,
you promised fullness but left me dull,
there is nothing here for you anymore,
I quit, I am done, It’s no more fun.
Don’t want to think of what you have done.
I am going far and won’t come close
to the likes of you,
no more, no more.