Learning To Hang In There
We've all seen the poster of the kitty hanging off the tree limb with the caption "Hang In There Baby". But who would have thought that this little blurb could be the foundation of a healthy spiritual life?
We all have both highs and lows as our life sort of ebbs and flows through time. I guess what I'm realizing is that I need to make the most out of the highs in life so that when the lows come I am better prepared to hang in there.
Peace Of Mind Gives Me…Nothing To Write About
It's so funny that when everything is going smoothly that I strain my brain for something to write about and usually come up short.
It makes perfect sense, I write to express my feelings and problems. When my feelings are copacetic and there aren't any major problems what am I supposed to say?
I guess I could say that last year around this time I was still in very early recovery. I never dreamed that I could feel the peace of mind that I do at this very moment. Not without drugs anyway.
But here I am. Happy, healthy, easy going, responsible, goofy and for the first time since I can remember...excited about life.
That's about it for today.
Addictive Thinking: Preoccupied With Past Thoughts
You are driving in your car and for some reason in your mind you are going over something that happened in the past. You are thinking about what you could have said, should have done, would now do differently. Why are we preoccupied with past thoughts?
Cymbalta Withdrawal Symptoms Suck
My Cymbalta dose is now down to zero and the withdrawal symptoms are brutal. I followed my doctors directions for slowly weening off Cymbalta...why are my Cymbalta withdrawal symptoms so severe?
Merry Christmas
Just like most of us, my actively addicted self does not share much in common with my living clean self. It usually takes special occasions like the nearly here Christmas for me to realize just how much of a positive change there has been in myself.
My "birthday" or "anniversary" whichever you would like to call it is at the end of January. This means that last Christmas was one of the most dire times in my life. I still had not hit my bottom around Christmas time last year but let me tell you, I was hovering just above it.
I guess that it why this Holiday season has been so special for me. Long gone are the days when any sort of responsibility was too much for me to handle. Long gone are the days when making a plan and sticking to it was out of the question. Long gone are the days of wasting my money on drugs leaving me scrambling at the last minute for funds to be able to buy people's Christmas gifts...not to mention how hard it was to actually give my money to a cashier knowing I could be using the money to get high.
Happy Easter…If You’re Into That Sort Of Thing
Religion is a topic that I absolutely do not discuss with strangers. I find that one side is always trying to convert the other side into thinking their way. It makes me feel uncomfortable.
With that said...I wanted to wish a Happy Easter to any of you out there that celebrate the holiday. This goes to those that are into the whole religious aspect of Easter and also to those of you that only celebrate this holiday because you have a child and you want your child to be able to experience the joy of having the Easter Bunny visit and leave a basket full of candy.
I fall into the latter category and I apologize to no one for it. My family and friends all know the deal with me, my husband and my child. We are what you would call spiritual...not religious.
I know that in the Christian religion Easter is celebrated because it is said to be the time when Jesus was resurrected...fine. But for my family and myself, Easter is a celebration of ringing in the springtime.
Easter is a time when good little boys and girls are rewarded by a visit from the Easter Bunny who delivers them a basket full of tasty treats (and maybe a toy or two). Just as Christians celebrate the resurrection of Jesus, we gather with family and friends celebrate the resurrection of all that went dormant over the Winter months.
I don't try and argue with you about why you would use a candy delivering rabbit to celebrate the resurrection of Christ and you shouldn't argue with me why I don't.
Happy Easter
Addiction Recovery: Accept The Things I Cannot Change
There are certain things in life that we cannot change, no matter how badly it is we want to be able to. Just like the Serenity Prayer states, we hope for the serenity to accept the things we can not change.
I usually look at addiction from an addicts point of view, what with being a recovering addict and all. But it seems that I need to change up my role here for a little bit. I have a sibling that is an active addict still in the denial phase. I'm sitting helplessly watching an active addict and sometimes wishing that I could do more.
The Second Road
I just registered for a membership on a site called The Second Road. I'll give you the description of the site in The Second Road's own words "We are a free non-profit online community BY and FOR people in recovery from addictions of all kinds. We welcome people of ALL stages of recovery using ANY method that works for them."
This site caught my attention at first because it looks cool but The Second Road is much more than a cool looking website.
Mine Enemy Grows Older – No Containment
I was inspired by Bottlecappie at Diary of a Quitter to participate in Mine Enemy Grows Older which is a collaborative poetry project run by Rick Mobbs.
I have never in my life written poetry but I do love art. Since the whole concept of this project is to look at an image prompt, which is a work of art by Rick Mobbs, and see what it inspires out of you, I figured I would take a shot at it.
So without further ado... Here is my first shot (I'm getting embarrassed already!) at poetry.
Relapse: It Snuck Up On Me?
Some of you may not think that taking Benedryl to make yourself feel drowsy and fall asleep would be considered a relapse...for me it definitely was. So how did this happen?
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