I’m Back…What? You Didn’t Notice I Was Gone?
I got back from New York last night after a three day business/pleasure trip. I feel completely wiped out. Sure, it could be because I spent about 5 hours total on trains yesterday or it could be that I ate completely crappy the entire time I was there.
Whatever the reason is...I'm taking today to get myself back in check. I'll be back to writing something worth reading tomorrow.
Addiction Recovery: Checks and Balances
In addiction recovery it is very important to routinely take inventory of yourself. Kind of a checks and balances type thing for your thinking and behavior.
Why is this so important? Well by now we have learned that no one is perfect. We don't lead perfectly structured lives all the time. Sometimes we let things slip. Sometimes we make errors and sometimes we just flat out drop the ball. That's why check and balances in addiction recovery are so important.
Mr. Brownstone Lyrics Sum Up My Addiction
I get up around whenever
I used to get up on time
But that old man he's a real motherfucker
Gonna kick him on down the line
Nice Girls Do Finish Last
I pride myself on being a morel and honest person who does not steal or cheat to get ahead in life. I live day to day thinking that my honest way of life will somehow be rewarded in time.
Most days this is very easy to swallow but sometimes I am overwhelmed with frustration and can't shake the feeling that nice girls really do finish last.
Facing Problems Head On In Recovery
The post I recently did about learning to accept the things I cannot change got me thinking about a negative behavior that I was riddled with in active addiction...not facing problems head on.
The behavior of avoiding problematic situations is something that is very common with addicts. See, the key to successfully living in denial about all of your problems is to numb yourself into oblivion until you don't think about them anymore. Simple right?
So what happens when you are no longer numbing away your problems with drugs or alcohol? Well, unless you want to continue living a miserable life that is completely based on denial and a disconnection from your soul you need to master the art of facing problems head on in recovery.
Addiction Recovery: I Think Too Much
Have you ever caught yourself thinking to yourself about all of the things about yourself that need to be changed and worked on and just aren't right? I have, but lately I have been telling myself to shut it.
Amy Winehouse At The Grammys
Amy Winehouse performed at the Grammys via satellite from London last night in her first televised performance since entering into rehab last month.
"Yes I've been black but when I come back you'll know, know, know". I guess those Amy Winehouse lyrics from her song Rehab still ring true...even if she did end up saying yes to rehab.
A Recovering Addict Helplessly Watching An Active Addict
I had written a story before regarding how hard it is when you have family members that for whatever reason act as a trigger for your addiction. I had figured out a way to hang out with my brother without putting myself in a dangerous position. After all you can change your friends but not your family.
What Do You Do To Make Yourself Feel Better?
There was a time when my way of making myself feel better involved numbing myself... usually into oblivion. That was pretty much my go to answer for every situation that I encountered that made me feel... well just feel.
It's been a long time since I have used drugs to change the way I was feeling, 2 years this coming Monday as a matter of fact. In this time, I have still had all the same things that life throws at you, I've just avoided using to change the way I feel. But when you are having feels of doubt, feelings of pain, anger, sadness... what do you do to make yourself feel better?
How Do You Make Yourself Feel Better
Since we are trying to avoid the use of mood altering substances as our first defense against negative feelings, it leaves us with the question "How do you make yourself feel better?".
You know what I mean right? Those times in life when you feel lost, vulnerable, worthless, sad, hopeless...and all those other crappy feelings that I left out. How do you turn your feelings around and make yourself feel better without reaching for that instant fix?
The truth is there are a lot of ways to make yourself feel better without resorting to using drugs but the thing that we need to accept is that when feelings are concerned...there is no such thing as instant gratification.
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