April 2010

That Old Addictive Thinking

You know the saying “Don’t judge your insides based on someone else’s outside”? Basically meaning don’t get down on yourself because you don’t measure up to what you PERCEIVE someone else’s life to be based on appearances. Why do I find myself doing that?

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What a Cliche… Lonely on Valentine’s Day

Separated from my husband and without my kid on the weekends can leave me with a lot of down time. I try and fill that time with something constructive like working. But this weekend I find myself with nothing but time. Throw in the fact that yesterday was Valentine’s Day and that everyone I usually [...]

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I Had A Dream About Drug Use

There I was in a grocery store standing in the check out line. I have no idea what I was buying but the person in line in front of me was telling me that she had something to get me high. My mother in-law was the cashier and she was looking at me and smiling. [...]

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Relapse Prevention: Having One Of Those Days

Sometimes I don’t realize how happy my life has become until I have one of those days. You know, the ones where everything seems unbearable. You are feeling not so enthused about life in general and you wonder why you bother to fight the good fight.

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Just Roll With It – The Importance Of Being Open To Change

I don’t think I’m wrong in saying that a good number of addicts and alcoholics, whether active or not, have a teeny weeny problem with change. It could be we lack the skills necessary to just roll with things, it could be that the way that we have dealt with change, good or bad, in [...]

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In Every Life There Is A Little Self Doubt… Right?

I’ve talked before about my need for a routine. It seems that when I let my routine slide a little… I fall apart. This past week my husband was on vacation and we really had a great time going on day trips here and there. All of this fun had me away from my house [...]

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Quick Hello

It has been a while since I’ve posted anything. I’ve been enjoying the little bit of summer that we have left with my family. I just wanted to let everyone know that I’m doing really well and staying on track. I really appreciate the messages that I have received asking if everything is ok. It’s [...]

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People Watching:My Addictive Isolation

I have noticed a quality about myself that I absolutely hate. I have a tendency to pick people apart. It starts off innocently enough with people watching. I’ll be out somewhere just looking at people as they walk by. Then something in my head starts to judge these people. Maybe they have on some shoes [...]

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Addiction Recovery: A Break In The Denial

I had previously written a few posts venting about having to sit back and helplessly watch an addict in the throes of addiction. This post happened to be about watching my own brother in active Oxycontin addiction. His situation was getting pretty bad back in the beginning of November and I was having a hard [...]

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What Is There To Say?

Not much today. I feel like today is one of those days where I just need to keep myself busy. I’ve allowed myself to spend a lot of time over the past few days thinking about my life and my problems. Today… I’m going to just try to smile today. I think that’s a pretty [...]

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