I had previously written a few posts venting about having to sit back and helplessly watch an addict in the throes of addiction. This post happened to be about watching my own brother in active Oxycontin addiction.
His situation was getting pretty bad back in the beginning of November and I was having a hard time with this. I finally listened…really listened, and took the age old advice to accept the things I cannot change.
It is with a huge sigh of relief that I tell you I finally got the phone call from him in which he is ready to surrender himself to the fact that he has absolutely no control over his life right now. He had a break in the denial and his brain was able to have the clarity to realize that he needed help…he could not get better on his own.
There are one or two people in my family that were shocked. Sure, they knew something was wrong with him but were kind of in denial as to the severity of the situation. These one or two people were taken back and upset by my brother’s cry for help. Not me.
Obviously I have seen this coming for a while. I’m relieved that this situation has come at my brother’s own accord and wasn’t forced by something like an accidental overdose or jail.
As I stated I had made the decision to accept this situation for what it was…one of those things that I cannot change. It wasn’t the easiest thing to do but I’m glad I was able to. It didn’t take any of the fear out of the situation but it let me stop beating myself up for not helping enough or doing something about it.
It is a huge coincidence but my brother is actually taking the Suboxone route of recovery. This is a topic that I have been blogging about lately. I’m not too crazy about this idea because we have both used Suboxone to delay the inevitable in the past. But…it’s not my recovery.
I can say that thanks to people like The Discovering Alcoholic and his brother Screedler I’m not feeling so alone in this situation. They have been an example that it’s not out of the ordinary for two people in a family to have addiction problems and seek the help that they need.
Today my mind is a little lighter than it was even just yesterday.