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It seems that I have turned into Suzie Homemaker in the little over a year period of my addiction recovery.

This change did not come without huge resistance on my part. Going from Queen of the Jams (a jam = an oxycontin pill) to Suzie Homemaker was not a smooth transformation. Obviously there were lifestyle changes that needed to be made once I entered into addiction recovery but I never pictured this. Read the rest of this entry »

Let me start out by saying that I am a huge fan of Amy Winehouse’s music. I absolutely love her style and feel that in the world of today’s music, it is very unique.

What is not unique is Amy Winehouse’s addiction problems. She has been on a downward spiral for a long time which included an attempt to enter a rehab facility in August of 2007. That attempt at recovery lasted about three days and obviously had no lasting effect. So will January 24th’s check in to rehab be any different than the last? Read the rest of this entry »

January 26th will be my one year anniversary of being in recovery. As far as I’m concerned, this has been the best year of my life. Sure, it wasn’t the funnest, the easiest, or the most peaceful year. But as far as my well being is concerned, this has been my most productive year ever.

My first year in addiction recovery has been filled with many ups and downs, many ebbs and flows, many steps forward…and a couple of steps back. What is the most important thing I’ve learned? Stumble don’t fall. Read the rest of this entry »

Think about all of the isolating that we did in active addiction. Is it any wonder that a lot of us experience a sense of loneliness in addiction recovery?

Because in addiction you have distanced yourself from a lot of the positive people in your life and have instead chosen to surround yourself with people who have the same addictive qualities as yourself, once you enter into recovery and have cut ties with the “wrong type of people” you may be left with the feeling of loneliness. Read the rest of this entry »

Someone somewhere must have told you at least one time in your recovery to act as if. But what does this mean and how are you being honest with yourself if you are acting?
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In my early recovery I had no idea what to do with myself. I truly forgot what it was like to have fun. When I was using, so much of my time and energy was spent getting the drug, preparing the drug and being messed up on the drug that I didn’t have much time for anything else.
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Other than writing my thoughts and rants on this site I really haven’t been making that much effort lately to share with people. I decided that I would join some online addiction related groups. I joined Yahoo Groups and I can’t believe I’m about to say this but I love it!
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Was it hard for you to admit that you were a drug addict or alcoholic? It wasn’t very hard for me to admit it to myself. That part actually came pretty easy. It was saying it out loud to another person that I found difficult.
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This will just be a quick one but I was just looking on an addiction message board. I like to check out other sites and see what people are doing, what kind of questions are being asked and just to read some stuff from some people that are in the same boat as myself.
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Just try and tell me that you haven’t had that thought before…anyone, no one, ok then. Good, it’s not just me. Our minds are so f’d up with addictive thinking that we actually try and fool ourselves into believing the thought that possibly we weren’t as bad as we made out to be. We must have over reacted because we went today without drinking and it wasn’t too hard.
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