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I’m Back…What? You Didn’t Notice I Was Gone?

Erin — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 18:25:04 +0000

I got back from New York last night after a three day business/pleasure trip. I feel completely wiped out. Sure, it could be because I spent about 5 hours total on trains yesterday or it could be that I ate completely crappy the entire time I was there.

Whatever the reason is...I'm taking today to get myself back in check. I'll be back to writing something worth reading tomorrow.

Finding Your Life’s Purpose: What Am I Doing Here?

Erin — Thu, 21 Jan 2010 03:35:39 +0000

So I have accepted the fact that we will never truly understand what life is all about. But does that mean that I will never understand my own life's purpose?

I don't believe that. I feel like all of your life is building up to something and when it all comes together... you find your life's purpose.

But what do you do until then? What do you do with the question: "what am I doing here?"

Sometimes I take a look at the many, many roles I have played in my 30 years on earth. I try to connect the dots and find what all of these various situations would have to do with one another and what things from each experience could be meshed together to make something else.

So far... nothing. I can't seem to figure it out yet. So I feel a little lost at the moment. I can't shake this feeling that there is something that I'm supposed to be doing. Something greater than what I am doing at the moment.

Then again, other times I feel like my job in life at this point is to raise my child the best that I can with the least distractions as possible.

I know, I know... all I should concern myself with really is the present time and not worry about what I'll be doing with myself in the future. But you know, sometimes you just can't help it right?

I guess I get kind of nervous that because I'm a stay at home mom and my main goal of taking care of my child and husband will end one day that I'll be left with not much else. Grimm thought I know. But it is something I fear.

What is really weird is that from the time I was little I never really wanted to be anything. You know what I mean? Someone asks a younger person "what do you want to be when you get older?" and I would say "I don't know". That answer has never really changed for me.

So I walk around feeling like I'm meant to do something... I just haven't figured out what that is yet. I pay attention to coincidences that I notice in life and I try to use them as indicators of what direction I'm supposed to be taking.

I believe that the "luckiest" people on earth are the ones that pay attention to life's coincidences. Kind of explains the type of people that are always in the right place at the right time. I guess they are just paying attention to the natural flow and not fighting it. I WANT TO BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE!!

Happy Easter…If You’re Into That Sort Of Thing

Erin — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 13:53:23 +0000

Religion is a topic that I absolutely do not discuss with strangers. I find that one side is always trying to convert the other side into thinking their way. It makes me feel uncomfortable.

With that said...I wanted to wish a Happy Easter to any of you out there that celebrate the holiday. This goes to those that are into the whole religious aspect of Easter and also to those of you that only celebrate this holiday because you have a child and you want your child to be able to experience the joy of having the Easter Bunny visit and leave a basket full of candy.

I fall into the latter category and I apologize to no one for it. My family and friends all know the deal with me, my husband and my child. We are what you would call spiritual...not religious.

I know that in the Christian religion Easter is celebrated because it is said to be the time when Jesus was resurrected...fine. But for my family and myself, Easter is a celebration of ringing in the springtime.

Easter is a time when good little boys and girls are rewarded by a visit from the Easter Bunny who delivers them a basket full of tasty treats (and maybe a toy or two). Just as Christians celebrate the resurrection of Jesus, we gather with family and friends celebrate the resurrection of all that went dormant over the Winter months.

I don't try and argue with you about why you would use a candy delivering rabbit to celebrate the resurrection of Christ and you shouldn't argue with me why I don't.

Happy Easter