What Winners Do – An Addiction Recovery Blog Stories, Struggles And Success of A Recovering Addict Trying to Do What Winners Do

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   lou
   August 24th, 2009 - 08:17

   check this out

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   Jill Henning
   August 31st, 2009 - 15:38

   THE BRAIN IS DIZZY – THE MAINIA OF CYMBALTA WITHDRAWAL

   The brain is dizzy
   the fingers of the mind are slowly trying to part the curtains
   that have kept the ambiance so muted all these years.
   Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself.
   The brain is dizzy

   What was that?
   Something stirring in another part of the body
   Remember that – I think its called emotion
   Where have you been?
   Don’t do that – there are tears in my eyes
   Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
   The brain is dizzy

   Why is there anger – that is not allowed
   I am supposed to accept all that is handed out
   The injustices of society
   The rules of corporations
   The control is slipping, its sliding out of reality
   I cant stop it any longer
   Why should I – who knows what’s really in my mind
   Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
   The brain is dizzy

   Faster, faster here we go
   This is a roller coaster ride of mind boggling proportions
   Can you feel it?
   Can you see it?
   I am sorry,
   This isn’t me.
   Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
   The brain is dizzy

   The light seeps in as the curtains open
   nothing can stop them
   the track is on a one way movement
   Sepia to full colour
   Mind blowing senses
   Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
   The brain is dizzy

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   Just Curious
   September 26th, 2009 - 19:11

   You have scrubbed your site of Cymbalta references including the withdrawal blog. Have you made an arrangement with Eli-Lilly?

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   Greg from Oz
   November 3rd, 2009 - 03:57

   Hi

   I have used smack in the distant past, but, because of various reasons I can’t develop networks (try social phobia for one). Still, opiates will always remain the drug of choice for me – unfortunately, because of this phobia (and also because it is very hard to get S8 – Morph, oxy contin etc.) from GP’s – I occasionally have a shot at protracted suicide using OTC’s. First time I almost died (Nurofen Plus ring a bell in the US? 16 gm of codeine plus a shitload of nurofen – Codeine gets you hooked and hopelessly constipated while the other garbage rots away every organ in your bdoy). Anyway, ’nuff said – we all have our stories.
   I’m curious – in Oz, Mehtadone and bupe/suboxone are free – you just have to pay $300 to a private clinic per month to “dispense” (you can go to Govt. clinics but they are always full and not great places – no offence, but they are usually barbed wire shitheaps with people lined up outside trying to sell you a script for Diazepam). Yes – I work in health and it is very difficult for me.
   Suboxone is just bupe with a touch of narcan (or whatever) added so people can’t hit it up – instant withdrawal!!! Only works under the tongue (well, there are other ways but lets not go there – less effective as well). It will give you, even an at 16 mg (half the max. daily dose) a slight anti depressant feeling so if you are after a whack, bupe etc. ain’t it. However, I i have been working with another similarly qualified individual on the theory that, once it stabilises you, after about three hours the narcan hits for 20 ‘ or so (it is a short acting drug), makes you fell cranky bla bla ( a mini withdrawawal at 11.00 AM or so every day – then the bupe takes back over.
   Of course, during this 20 minutes you are freaking a bit – so I (in my case) reach for the benzo’s big time. Then the Bupe gets back in control and all you want to do is sleep (I suppose it’s obvious – Valium is a rotten drug). These are just suppositions and seem to affect about 50% of SUBOXONE (not bupe) users from my own and other observations.
   I would be very, very interested in any comments on this odd phenomenon?

   Anyway, take care. We are a weary band but we are alive and can gain strength from each other. Also – there is nothing wrong with self medicating if YOU DO IT RIGHT. Not the greatest world, and we, possibly, all have have hard lives so don’t belt yourself up. Want to to see some wrecks – try gamblers.

   Happy to converse anytime – I am going through a very hard time myself (ain’t we all) and Oz isn’t just the Opera house and Sydney Harbour. More like the back streets of Baltimore (no offence to Baltimoreans – just used it as an example – seen the back streets of Oxford?).

   Stuff this “LOL” crap – let’s try to enjoy at least 30% of our lives – that’s a start.

   Greg

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   Kimberly
   January 19th, 2010 - 00:12

   You go girl, !
   Great site,

   Only a suggestion Laugh with me here…….

   Offer Option to edit ones own post…
   miss spell or a durrr sentence.,,,,,,,,,

   Thanks
   Kim

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   matilda
   July 7th, 2010 - 23:42

   Please continue writing, I am dealing with a missing son whose life seems to be slipping away and your posts have given me hope.

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