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I have used smack in the distant past, but, because of various reasons I can’t develop networks (try social phobia for one). Still, opiates will always remain the drug of choice for me – unfortunately, because of this phobia (and also because it is very hard to get S8 – Morph, oxy contin etc.) from GP’s – I occasionally have a shot at protracted suicide using OTC’s. First time I almost died (Nurofen Plus ring a bell in the US? 16 gm of codeine plus a shitload of nurofen – Codeine gets you hooked and hopelessly constipated while the other garbage rots away every organ in your bdoy). Anyway, ’nuff said – we all have our stories.
I’m curious – in Oz, Mehtadone and bupe/suboxone are free – you just have to pay $300 to a private clinic per month to “dispense” (you can go to Govt. clinics but they are always full and not great places – no offence, but they are usually barbed wire shitheaps with people lined up outside trying to sell you a script for Diazepam). Yes – I work in health and it is very difficult for me.
Suboxone is just bupe with a touch of narcan (or whatever) added so people can’t hit it up – instant withdrawal!!! Only works under the tongue (well, there are other ways but lets not go there – less effective as well). It will give you, even an at 16 mg (half the max. daily dose) a slight anti depressant feeling so if you are after a whack, bupe etc. ain’t it. However, I i have been working with another similarly qualified individual on the theory that, once it stabilises you, after about three hours the narcan hits for 20 ‘ or so (it is a short acting drug), makes you fell cranky bla bla ( a mini withdrawawal at 11.00 AM or so every day – then the bupe takes back over.
Of course, during this 20 minutes you are freaking a bit – so I (in my case) reach for the benzo’s big time. Then the Bupe gets back in control and all you want to do is sleep (I suppose it’s obvious – Valium is a rotten drug). These are just suppositions and seem to affect about 50% of SUBOXONE (not bupe) users from my own and other observations.
I would be very, very interested in any comments on this odd phenomenon?

Anyway, take care. We are a weary band but we are alive and can gain strength from each other. Also – there is nothing wrong with self medicating if YOU DO IT RIGHT. Not the greatest world, and we, possibly, all have have hard lives so don’t belt yourself up. Want to to see some wrecks – try gamblers.

Happy to converse anytime – I am going through a very hard time myself (ain’t we all) and Oz isn’t just the Opera house and Sydney Harbour. More like the back streets of Baltimore (no offence to Baltimoreans – just used it as an example – seen the back streets of Oxford?).

Stuff this “LOL” crap – let’s try to enjoy at least 30% of our lives – that’s a start.

Greg

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Please continue writing, I am dealing with a missing son whose life seems to be slipping away and your posts have given me hope.

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Hello, I see that there has not been a post for sometime but was hoping you and your readers could check out and possibly use these cool Recovery Badges I have created: http://www.rehab-programs.org/widget You simply put in your name and recovery date, and will be given a code you can paste on your own personal blog or website and the badge will share with your readers how many years, months or days clean and sober!

Thanks in advance & have a great day!
Ryan

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Hi Erin!

Great to hear from you and thanks for your email. I just subscribed to receive your newsletters. I am also in recovery for alcohol addiction and love reading about people’s experience, strength and hope. Since I’m also an actress and extremely passionate about recovery, I decided to combine the two elements and create a web series called Grace This Way. It’s about a young woman’s journey through the 12 steps of AA and the first episode is premiering on Sunday, September 18 at 8 p.m. at http://gracethisway.com/.

I wonder if you might be willing to write a brief article about the web series on your blog. I think your readers could benefit from watching the series as well as reading Grace’s thoughts on her blog. It has always helped my recovery knowing I’m not alone.

Let me me know! In the mean time, I look forward to reading more of your articles.

Thanks and have a great weekend.

Best,
Sarah

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awesome..jill..putting you on my Fb

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Erin:
would you like to gust post on my Blog about womens issues in recovery –

i can do the same on your blog about recovery from Alcohol ??

what do ya say ?

Tom Gillis
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Hi
I don’t know if this blog is still active but I would like to share this with you.
I live in South Africa and started using Cymgen about 3 years ago. I was on 30mg once a day. After deciding that the medication didn’t help me, I decided to quit cold turkey. The only withdrawal symptoms I experienced was the dizziness and vertigo. But it was really bad. I started taking it again after a week. I decided to research this and found that antioxidants is supposed to reduce the withdrawal. So I started taking PROCYDIN* (don’t know if this is available worldwide) with the Cymgen for about 2 weeks. Then when my Cymgen was finished I continued to take the Procydin only. I must say that I am not experiencing any withdrawal symptoms at this stage. I also don’t get depressed (never had suicidal thoughts – even before)
Procydin contains:
Grape seed extract
Proanthocyanidins – 70mg
CA Ascorbate 30mg
Bioflavonoids 30mg
Vitamin E 15mg

I still take it as I am certain it can only be good for one.
I take 2 tablets once a day.

NOTE: This is NOT medical advice. I am NOT a doctor and this is my opinion based on experience.

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Thanks for the stories, it was nice and inspiring.

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