THE BRAIN IS DIZZY – THE MAINIA OF CYMBALTA WITHDRAWAL
The brain is dizzy
the fingers of the mind are slowly trying to part the curtains
that have kept the ambiance so muted all these years.
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself.
The brain is dizzy
What was that?
Something stirring in another part of the body
Remember that – I think its called emotion
Where have you been?
Don’t do that – there are tears in my eyes
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
Why is there anger – that is not allowed
I am supposed to accept all that is handed out
The injustices of society
The rules of corporations
The control is slipping, its sliding out of reality
I cant stop it any longer
Why should I – who knows what’s really in my mind
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
Faster, faster here we go
This is a roller coaster ride of mind boggling proportions
Can you feel it?
Can you see it?
I am sorry,
This isn’t me.
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
The light seeps in as the curtains open
nothing can stop them
the track is on a one way movement
Sepia to full colour
Mind blowing senses
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
I have used smack in the distant past, but, because of various reasons I can’t develop networks (try social phobia for one). Still, opiates will always remain the drug of choice for me – unfortunately, because of this phobia (and also because it is very hard to get S8 – Morph, oxy contin etc.) from GP’s – I occasionally have a shot at protracted suicide using OTC’s. First time I almost died (Nurofen Plus ring a bell in the US? 16 gm of codeine plus a shitload of nurofen – Codeine gets you hooked and hopelessly constipated while the other garbage rots away every organ in your bdoy). Anyway, ’nuff said – we all have our stories.
I’m curious – in Oz, Mehtadone and bupe/suboxone are free – you just have to pay $300 to a private clinic per month to “dispense” (you can go to Govt. clinics but they are always full and not great places – no offence, but they are usually barbed wire shitheaps with people lined up outside trying to sell you a script for Diazepam). Yes – I work in health and it is very difficult for me.
Suboxone is just bupe with a touch of narcan (or whatever) added so people can’t hit it up – instant withdrawal!!! Only works under the tongue (well, there are other ways but lets not go there – less effective as well). It will give you, even an at 16 mg (half the max. daily dose) a slight anti depressant feeling so if you are after a whack, bupe etc. ain’t it. However, I i have been working with another similarly qualified individual on the theory that, once it stabilises you, after about three hours the narcan hits for 20 ‘ or so (it is a short acting drug), makes you fell cranky bla bla ( a mini withdrawawal at 11.00 AM or so every day – then the bupe takes back over.
Of course, during this 20 minutes you are freaking a bit – so I (in my case) reach for the benzo’s big time. Then the Bupe gets back in control and all you want to do is sleep (I suppose it’s obvious – Valium is a rotten drug). These are just suppositions and seem to affect about 50% of SUBOXONE (not bupe) users from my own and other observations.
I would be very, very interested in any comments on this odd phenomenon?
Anyway, take care. We are a weary band but we are alive and can gain strength from each other. Also – there is nothing wrong with self medicating if YOU DO IT RIGHT. Not the greatest world, and we, possibly, all have have hard lives so don’t belt yourself up. Want to to see some wrecks – try gamblers.
Happy to converse anytime – I am going through a very hard time myself (ain’t we all) and Oz isn’t just the Opera house and Sydney Harbour. More like the back streets of Baltimore (no offence to Baltimoreans – just used it as an example – seen the back streets of Oxford?).
Stuff this “LOL” crap – let’s try to enjoy at least 30% of our lives – that’s a start.
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Hang in there, everyone…. There is truth regarding the quote ‘Work sets you free.” Staying busy occupies the mind from its’ depressed mood”
The Glass is always half full!
Great to hear from you and thanks for your email. I just subscribed to receive your newsletters. I am also in recovery for alcohol addiction and love reading about people’s experience, strength and hope. Since I’m also an actress and extremely passionate about recovery, I decided to combine the two elements and create a web series called Grace This Way. It’s about a young woman’s journey through the 12 steps of AA and the first episode is premiering on Sunday, September 18 at 8 p.m. at http://gracethisway.com/.
I wonder if you might be willing to write a brief article about the web series on your blog. I think your readers could benefit from watching the series as well as reading Grace’s thoughts on her blog. It has always helped my recovery knowing I’m not alone.
Let me me know! In the mean time, I look forward to reading more of your articles.
Dear Erin,
I am an alcoholic who has been struggling with many relapses for the last few years. I recently got sober, (it’s been 16 days since my last drink) and I am very determined this time to stay that way forever, so I’ve been doing the work and reading a lot of early recovery material on the net to help me get onto my own two feet. I just wanted to say that discovering your blog is a big help for me! I learn something new from each entry. Thank you for writing this.
z.
If I quit drinking for 11 months and then I drank one night again..Do I count my sober days all over again? I almost made it to a year and no I have to start all over again
Hi. Have just joined the happy band of Cymbalta withdrawees from acute hepatitis caused by the med. Brain zaps are defo the worst for me – between every 5- 45 secs for the past 4 days, plus hot then cold and a massive thirst. When I started taking Cymbalta, I expressed a concern, as had had a problem with SSRI withdrawal before, but GP (doctor) said well it’ll be ok as you can come not slowly – not when you are facing liver failure you can’t!. Feeling very emotional too, so keep explaining to poor hubby the old chestnut – “it’s not you, it’s me”. Also due to the liver damage have had to come off some other medications for my RA, so all in all not a good thing to happen. Love to have any email support from peeps who have got through this – am struggling atm
Jane xx
Just realised that the last post reads somewhat incoherently, sorry. What i was trying to explain was that I developed acute hepatitis, due to the Cymbalta, and by the time it was dxed, my liver was so bad, that I had to stop all my meds immediately! (I suffer from rheumatoid arthritis, which probably lead to the depression in the first place!)
That was last Saturday.
A week later, thankfully my liver function has responded well and improved to the extent I have been released from hospital, but now coping with the withdrawal of some pretty powerful drugs at home!
Hi Erin, I am looking for an email address for you if possible. I wanted to talk to you about a facepainting picture of yours. Can you email me please? Thanks a lot.
Just here too say thank you for this site….. Greatful, i am from Holland and i am one of thoose crazy people that has more feeling with the english language than the dutch that we speak, i can only tell you thanks you, it has been a big help……
Greets JustMe
I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and been on cymbalta for at least 7 years. I did take other antidepressents before cymbalta. With the help of the dr., I am trying to get off of it. I do take the 60 mg daily of with he recently dropped it to every other day. That was for 3 weeks. He moved it to every 3 days and now it supposedly should be off it by the end of this week. I am extremely emotional, however, I am also have some personal issues within my family members. Not with me, however, with a family member. I have also been experiencing inability to sleep well even though I may take an ambien. I have within the last couple of days experienced major sweating and am not sure if this is part of withdrawals. My dr. prescribed Xanax to help me through this period of stopping cymbalta. I haven’t taken it, because of not wanting to go from one med to another. What’s your thoughts as well as anyone elses?
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THE BRAIN IS DIZZY – THE MAINIA OF CYMBALTA WITHDRAWAL
The brain is dizzy
the fingers of the mind are slowly trying to part the curtains
that have kept the ambiance so muted all these years.
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself.
The brain is dizzy
What was that?
Something stirring in another part of the body
Remember that – I think its called emotion
Where have you been?
Don’t do that – there are tears in my eyes
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
Why is there anger – that is not allowed
I am supposed to accept all that is handed out
The injustices of society
The rules of corporations
The control is slipping, its sliding out of reality
I cant stop it any longer
Why should I – who knows what’s really in my mind
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
Faster, faster here we go
This is a roller coaster ride of mind boggling proportions
Can you feel it?
Can you see it?
I am sorry,
This isn’t me.
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
The light seeps in as the curtains open
nothing can stop them
the track is on a one way movement
Sepia to full colour
Mind blowing senses
Don’t move too fast – the brain cant keep up with itself
The brain is dizzy
You have scrubbed your site of Cymbalta references including the withdrawal blog. Have you made an arrangement with Eli-Lilly?
Hi
I have used smack in the distant past, but, because of various reasons I can’t develop networks (try social phobia for one). Still, opiates will always remain the drug of choice for me – unfortunately, because of this phobia (and also because it is very hard to get S8 – Morph, oxy contin etc.) from GP’s – I occasionally have a shot at protracted suicide using OTC’s. First time I almost died (Nurofen Plus ring a bell in the US? 16 gm of codeine plus a shitload of nurofen – Codeine gets you hooked and hopelessly constipated while the other garbage rots away every organ in your bdoy). Anyway, ’nuff said – we all have our stories.
I’m curious – in Oz, Mehtadone and bupe/suboxone are free – you just have to pay $300 to a private clinic per month to “dispense” (you can go to Govt. clinics but they are always full and not great places – no offence, but they are usually barbed wire shitheaps with people lined up outside trying to sell you a script for Diazepam). Yes – I work in health and it is very difficult for me.
Suboxone is just bupe with a touch of narcan (or whatever) added so people can’t hit it up – instant withdrawal!!! Only works under the tongue (well, there are other ways but lets not go there – less effective as well). It will give you, even an at 16 mg (half the max. daily dose) a slight anti depressant feeling so if you are after a whack, bupe etc. ain’t it. However, I i have been working with another similarly qualified individual on the theory that, once it stabilises you, after about three hours the narcan hits for 20 ‘ or so (it is a short acting drug), makes you fell cranky bla bla ( a mini withdrawawal at 11.00 AM or so every day – then the bupe takes back over.
Of course, during this 20 minutes you are freaking a bit – so I (in my case) reach for the benzo’s big time. Then the Bupe gets back in control and all you want to do is sleep (I suppose it’s obvious – Valium is a rotten drug). These are just suppositions and seem to affect about 50% of SUBOXONE (not bupe) users from my own and other observations.
I would be very, very interested in any comments on this odd phenomenon?
Anyway, take care. We are a weary band but we are alive and can gain strength from each other. Also – there is nothing wrong with self medicating if YOU DO IT RIGHT. Not the greatest world, and we, possibly, all have have hard lives so don’t belt yourself up. Want to to see some wrecks – try gamblers.
Happy to converse anytime – I am going through a very hard time myself (ain’t we all) and Oz isn’t just the Opera house and Sydney Harbour. More like the back streets of Baltimore (no offence to Baltimoreans – just used it as an example – seen the back streets of Oxford?).
Stuff this “LOL” crap – let’s try to enjoy at least 30% of our lives – that’s a start.
Greg
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Thanks in advance & have a great day!
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Hang in there, everyone…. There is truth regarding the quote ‘Work sets you free.” Staying busy occupies the mind from its’ depressed mood”
The Glass is always half full!
Hi Erin!
Great to hear from you and thanks for your email. I just subscribed to receive your newsletters. I am also in recovery for alcohol addiction and love reading about people’s experience, strength and hope. Since I’m also an actress and extremely passionate about recovery, I decided to combine the two elements and create a web series called Grace This Way. It’s about a young woman’s journey through the 12 steps of AA and the first episode is premiering on Sunday, September 18 at 8 p.m. at http://gracethisway.com/.
I wonder if you might be willing to write a brief article about the web series on your blog. I think your readers could benefit from watching the series as well as reading Grace’s thoughts on her blog. It has always helped my recovery knowing I’m not alone.
Let me me know! In the mean time, I look forward to reading more of your articles.
Thanks and have a great weekend.
Best,
Sarah
Dear Erin,
I am an alcoholic who has been struggling with many relapses for the last few years. I recently got sober, (it’s been 16 days since my last drink) and I am very determined this time to stay that way forever, so I’ve been doing the work and reading a lot of early recovery material on the net to help me get onto my own two feet. I just wanted to say that discovering your blog is a big help for me! I learn something new from each entry. Thank you for writing this.
z.
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If I quit drinking for 11 months and then I drank one night again..Do I count my sober days all over again? I almost made it to a year and no I have to start all over again
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Hi. Have just joined the happy band of Cymbalta withdrawees from acute hepatitis caused by the med. Brain zaps are defo the worst for me – between every 5- 45 secs for the past 4 days, plus hot then cold and a massive thirst. When I started taking Cymbalta, I expressed a concern, as had had a problem with SSRI withdrawal before, but GP (doctor) said well it’ll be ok as you can come not slowly – not when you are facing liver failure you can’t!. Feeling very emotional too, so keep explaining to poor hubby the old chestnut – “it’s not you, it’s me”. Also due to the liver damage have had to come off some other medications for my RA, so all in all not a good thing to happen. Love to have any email support from peeps who have got through this – am struggling atm
Jane xx
Just realised that the last post reads somewhat incoherently, sorry. What i was trying to explain was that I developed acute hepatitis, due to the Cymbalta, and by the time it was dxed, my liver was so bad, that I had to stop all my meds immediately! (I suffer from rheumatoid arthritis, which probably lead to the depression in the first place!)
That was last Saturday.
A week later, thankfully my liver function has responded well and improved to the extent I have been released from hospital, but now coping with the withdrawal of some pretty powerful drugs at home!
Hi Erin, I am looking for an email address for you if possible. I wanted to talk to you about a facepainting picture of yours. Can you email me please? Thanks a lot.
Just here too say thank you for this site….. Greatful, i am from Holland and i am one of thoose crazy people that has more feeling with the english language than the dutch that we speak, i can only tell you thanks you, it has been a big help……
Greets JustMe
I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and been on cymbalta for at least 7 years. I did take other antidepressents before cymbalta. With the help of the dr., I am trying to get off of it. I do take the 60 mg daily of with he recently dropped it to every other day. That was for 3 weeks. He moved it to every 3 days and now it supposedly should be off it by the end of this week. I am extremely emotional, however, I am also have some personal issues within my family members. Not with me, however, with a family member. I have also been experiencing inability to sleep well even though I may take an ambien. I have within the last couple of days experienced major sweating and am not sure if this is part of withdrawals. My dr. prescribed Xanax to help me through this period of stopping cymbalta. I haven’t taken it, because of not wanting to go from one med to another. What’s your thoughts as well as anyone elses?