Just like life it’s self, addiction recovery is filled with times of struggle and times of uncertainty. But also like like it’s self, it is made up of way more than that. For every bad time there is a good time.
For me, this is one of those times when I’m not struggling in my addiction recovery. At the moment, things seem to have fallen into place.
The only thing that I’m having a hard time with right now is practicing what I preach about being able to stay in the moment. Enjoy the good times without waiting for the other shoe to drop. It’s pretty difficult to realize that you don’t know how to deal with even the good times in life.
I’m so quick to look right over the good moments in life, kind of searching for the next crappy thing that is going to happen so that I’m not caught totally off guard. That’s no way to live.
Rationally I know that by staying in the moment, staying in the day, it means that I should not be fearing the future. Notice I said rationally. Knowing something and actually living something are two completely different things.
So for now in my addiction recovery, as weird as it seems to say, I struggle with allowing myself not to struggle. I’ll let you know how that goes.