If you have read anything about narcotics anonymous/alcoholics anonymous or if you have attended their meetings then you have heard of a “higher power”. To some this is God. But what is someone who isn’t really into god supposed to do.
I have tried and tried to believe that there is a God up there but I just can’t wrap my brain around that. I can say that I believe that but I would be lying to myself and that’s not going to help me in any way. I can’t tell you how many pages of my journal have been devoted to this very topic. I was talking about this at a narcotics anonymous meeting and I was given something to think about by another member. The fellowship of narcotics anonymous is my higher power right now.
I know that I can’t do this by myself. I need to be a part of something bigger than myself to make this work. I have already tried my way and it didn’t get me anywhere accept addicted to drugs. Since I have already accepted the fact that I can’t do it alone, I’ve accepted a higher power. The higher power being narcotics anonymous.
Being part of a group that shares their wisdom and struggles with me is my higher power right now. Having a fellowship that shows me the way to a successful life in recovery is what I need and what I depend on. I heard a man say how thankful he was for the group, he said “my way got me here, your way keeps me here”. I thought that was a pretty powerful statement.
When you accept something as being greater than yourself such as narcotics anonymous or alcoholics anonymous you have accepted your higher power. Who knows, maybe someday I will have belief in a God. I never say never.