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Lifestyle Changes In Addiction Recovery: How I Went From Queen of The Jams To Suzie Homemaker

It seems that I have turned into Suzie Homemaker in the little over a year period of my addiction recovery.

This change did not come without huge resistance on my part. Going from Queen of the Jams (a jam = an oxycontin pill) to Suzie Homemaker was not a smooth transformation. Obviously there were lifestyle changes that needed to be made once I entered into addiction recovery but I never pictured this.

If you were to go back over all of my blog posts from the beginning, you would no doubt find yourself reading the words of someone who over their 30 years on this earth lacked even the most basic life skills.

Aside from learning how to deal with feelings and emotions I had some other truths to face...I was now a stay at home mom for the first time and had no idea how to successfully run a household.

I didn't know how and to be real truthful here...didn't want to know. That was dorky and lame and I didn't want to be one of those people that had a laundry schedule. Right, cause doing laundry on a regular basis is somehow dorky?

I struggled for months and months, forcing myself to try and do what needed to be done around the house and then feeling bad about myself because I didn't want to do it and didn't do it well.

I wrote post after post about modifying bad behaviors and building your self confidence because these were the exact things that I was struggling with in my own recovery.

It's pretty difficult to face the facts that your lifestyle needs major changes. I'm not just talking about who you hang around with and where you go to have fun, although that is a major part of it in the beginning. I'm talking about your behaviors and your the way you think about things.

The best thing I was ever told by a therapist was that I wasn't lazy when it came to running my home...I was actually overwhelmed because I didn't know how to do it correctly. Bam! That opened my eyes.

There is nothing wrong with not knowing how to do something correctly. The only problem would be if I was unwilling to learn.

So, I set out to learn. I am happy to report that I have learned. I've learned that I'm not a lazy person with mental problems! I am human just like anyone else and there is really nothing that I cannot do if I put my mind to it.

You are the same as me. Once you have taken away the drugs or alcohol or whatever it was that you used to keep yourself in oblivion you will see some things about yourself and your life that you don't like. It's a lot harder to live with things you don't like when you're not effed up all the time so there is really only one choice...change them.

While I did struggle and resist against the change that needed to take place, I realize now that I did that out of fear. It wasn't because I didn't want to be a better, more productive person...I didn't know how and it scared the crap out of me.

In addiction recovery facing your fears is probably the hardest thing that you need to do. Fears have surrounded us and have kept us in active addiction. It is fear that keep us from changing.

Change, while not always pleasant at first, is necessary for growth. Change is what turned the Queen of the Jams into Suzie Homemaker.

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