I truly can’t believe it but it’s already time for Mother’s Day again. The year has gone by so quickly but it has also brought so many changes.
Last year my Happy Mother’s Day post was about my own mother and the importance of a mother’s support and understanding for her child in their recovery.
This year I wanted to talk about how much my own role of a mother has improved now that I am further into my addiction recovery.
No food, no clean clothes, no order and basically no rules. This would be a pretty good description of the way my home was when I was in active addiction. Sad but very true.
Last Mother’s Day came when I was about three months into my recovery. I had realized that my family’s home life needed a lot of improvements and I vowed to make those improvements even though I really didn’t have the first clue how to.
I mean, how do you get someone who hates cleaning, laundry, food shopping and cooking to just accept it as part of their lives? I didn’t know but I was determined to find out.
My progress in this area was slow. Very s.. l.. o.. w. I was beginning to get the feeling that I was kind of a failure in this area of life. Sure I had at one time worked 40 hours a week, had a commute of 15 hours a week, and had a small child I was taking care of but all of that chaos was kind of used as an excuse for me not to do the very basic things that need to get done in a home.
This year I’ve been a stay at home mom who’s main job in life was to take care of my child and run my home properly. There was nothing hiding the fact that I didn’t possess the knowledge of how to do this.
This was actually the best thing in the world that could have happened to me. I was forced to deal with the fact that I had no clue how to run a home and I had to remedy the situation.
I am really proud to say that I have come a long way this year in the area of being a mom and running a home. I am doing the very best that I can each and every day and I feel safe saying that this year has left me with no regrets in my role as a mom.
In the five years that I have been celebrating Mother’s Day I would say that this year more than any other I feel deserving of this special holiday.
Happy Mother’s Day