Comments on: Addiction Relapse: Stumble Don’t Fall

By: todd

todd — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 20:16:01 +0000

In an effort to recover from substance abuse and mental disorders referred to as dual diagnosis, recovery often involves unique treatment steps. My client, Silver Hill Hospital is excellent at Dual Diagnosis procedures and can detect and treat many substance abuse/mental disorders.

By: yahboy

yahboy — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 18:01:53 +0000

Your’e the dumbass. It’s not just ‘blog fodder’ this is serious business. Maybe you’re not an addict/alcoholic but the fact of the matter is many of us are. Posts like these can help us relate to our own sobriety. But calling somebody a dumbass because they relapsed is low man. This is life or death for some of us and belittling someone about it is not cool.

By: Dave

Dave — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 06:58:51 +0000

Erin,

Sorry to hear about the relapse. I have been following you since you started and have thrown in a few words of encouragement along the way. Gratefully, I have 841 days today, just for today. On Thanksgiving, I got a phone call that caused me to re-evaluate my life. The woman I love and met in recovery with 5 months clean passed away in her sleep at the age of 45. I can not tell you the feeling in words or type that described the feelings I had 2 weeks ago. Jackie showed me that even with relapse (she relaspsed 4 yrs ago with 13 yrs), there IS HOPE. I got clean at the age of 45 and consider myself to have a pretty good head on my shoulders. I “got clean” just to get off the oxy’s from surgery only. My higher power showed me that NA and the steps can get you through anything. By practicing the program in ALL my affairs, I am able to see into the future see that I will be ok. If I run to the drug….OR decied to grab my usual bottle of Korbel, all bets are off.

Look……I’ve wasted SOoooo many years of my life due to my addictions. Jackie and I traveled to places people only dream of and went to meetings along the way. We had planned to attend the convention in MD that weekend. But now…that dream is gone.

Higher powers have a way of letting you know your not alone. Although I struggle with GOD, I am learning to believe in Him. Jackie’s sponsor is devistated, but we have made a decision to help each other get over the person we loved with all our heart and soul. She will always be with us. We are becoming close and learning more about aourselves by being totally honest with each other. Remarkable things are happening for both of us.

The reason I mention this is because her sponsor had just relapsed in September. I was very dissappointed and told Jackie that if SHE ever relapsed, that we would probably not continue our relationship. The guilt I have over saying those horrible words is hard to let go, but I’m getting better with each passing day. I still feel like an ass at times, because I have no right to judge someone. Regardless……..No matter what……..I did not use, and for this I am full of gratitude today.

I hope this helps you in your recovery process. There is NO reason to use. What they say is true…..you only get what you put into your recovery process. I put my life into it. It’s the only one I have, and I have been made aware of that in one of the most painful ways, but losing a part of me in the process.

Dig deeper into your process. You will do what winners do by living it. Even though I had a loss, I AM A WINNER.

By: MA

MA — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 04:03:13 +0000

My boyfriend of 6 months just relapsed. I don’t know what I should say to him. I want to be supportive, but I don’t want to let him off the hook. I have 2 small children and will not tolerate drugs around them. What can I say to him that will be loving and still let him know that this sort of thing is unacceptable? I know he is bound to feel guilty right now, and he was honest with me – but I kind of caught him at it. Something felt wrong and I stopped by this place. His heart was racing and he left immediately – very atypical behavior. He said he was going off to meet AA friends. I wonder if he would have told me if I had not seen him acting oddly. I wonder if it will happen again. Words of advice?

By: jerry

jerry — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 18:35:04 +0000

I just relapsed after a year. I don’t want to drink again. My problem is I can’t tell anyone. If I do I will lose everything that means anything to me. My kids,family,sponsor. I feel like killing myself. I don’t know what to do I don’t crave alcohol. I know I can stop. I just feel so guilty.

By: Allison

Allison — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 00:46:02 +0000

My husband just relapsed after 2 years of sobriety. I dont know what to do I am so angry with him he spent money we didnt have and now. I just cry and want the life that we had before all of this. I wish he could tell me hes done and he say he hopes he is but his brain wont let him stop thinking about drugs. Anyone got any advise for someone who doesnt understand?

By: Erin

Erin — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 13:38:26 +0000

Lizzie
You did exactly what you are supposed to do when something like this happens.

You held yourself accountable and you were honest even though that was a really, really hard thing to have to do. I think that now that you have experienced what it is like to have to tell your sponsor and your husband that you used again it will make you do everything in your power to avoid having to ever do that again.

These things happen and you handled it beautifully. Congratulations

By: Lizzie

Lizzie — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 06:53:20 +0000

I was preparing for a trip to the UK this evening and was looking in my bedside drawer for a pair of earrings to pack. Right in the corner of the drawer was a dusty, dirty amphetamine tablet. I just got my six-month token, was going to meetings daily as well as calling my sponsor. I had just begun step 4. I had also lined up meetings and rides in the UK. I popped that pill without even thinking anything. It seemed to happen in a nano second. As I felt high, I started to come up with all the excuses to hide what I had done. I had energy to run errands but as I was driving I kept thinking of the program and the term “rigorous honesty” I got home and called my sponsor, she said it was my decision to give up my sobriety date. So I’m back to day one. My biggest fear was my husband as he said if I used again I should just go back to England to live and leave him and our boys in peace. Again my sponsor told me it was my decision if I wanted to tell him. I wrote it in the form of a letter since I was so emotional and fearful. He read the letter and said he understood but mostly appreciated the honesty which had been lacking in our relationship. While sad, I feel as though I’ve really grown into an adult today. My sponsor is meeting me tomorrow at a meeting. I could pick it to pieces and try and find people, places or things to blame but ultimately I accept the responsibility. All I can say is AA rocks, keep coming back!

By: lorra

lorra — Fri, 06 Jun 2008 04:57:47 +0000

i just relapsed yesterday after 11 years sober.

By: Paul

Paul — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 21:19:18 +0000

I just relapsed after 2 years of sobriety. It started off with a Vicodin prescription (my weakest substance), and I didn’t handle it the way I was suppose to. Of course, the gate was now open, and I was drinking on the job and trying to get prescriptions for Xanax. I’ve finally succumb to the issue. Today is my first day clean. Something to be proud of.
I NEVER THOUGHT I’D RELAPSE. It happened so quickly, and I forgot EVERYTHING that I learned in recovery. That says a lot. We will forget, we will forget, we will forget. And when we do, we’ll distroy ourselves and everyone around us again. I’m glad I caught my relapse soon, found a sponsor, and going to a meeting tonight!