What Winners Do – An Addiction Recovery Blog Stories, Struggles And Success of A Recovering Addict Trying to Do What Winners Do

Happy Memorial Day… And Thank You

I think that sometimes we lose sight of what this holiday is really about. I just wanted to take a moment to thank all those that have served in our military.

Thank you

Addiction Recovery: Return Of The Living Dead

Last year at this time I was in a full on Oxycontin addiction. I had quit my job. My husband, son and I had to move into an apartment in my parents house because our house was foreclosed on and...I was beginning to hate myself.

That is why it is so amazing to me where I am at right now in terms of my addiction recovery. I appropriately titled this post return of the living dead because last year at this time I was a zombie. I was just going through the motions of life. The only "happiness" I thought I was experiences were related to my drug intake. I was only a shell of the real me, I was the living dead.

Overwhelmed? Naaa… Ok Maybe A Little

Overwhelmed? How does one get overwhelmed when they are living life Twenty-four hours at a time? Oh right... I haven't been too good at that lately.

What I have been good at is dreading what I'm going to have to go through in the very near future. This is pretty asinine when you think about it because all of this dread is over what I think my near future is going to be like. I have no idea for sure what these next few weeks or month will bring and yet here I am letting myself dwell on "what ifs".

I guess I gotta get back to basics right? I have spent a lot of time learning to hang in there and I need to start applying what I have learned to my current situation. As in right now, right this moment.

So, no more dreading tomorrow. I need to stay in the day, or the moment really. I need to remember the quote that used to get me by:

“Today, well lived, makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope”.

Yeah, that sounds about right.

Recovery Solutions Magazine’s Top 22 “Cool” Ways for Teens to Say No

I just read a snipit of Recovery Solutions Magazine's article on the top 22 "cool" ways for teens to say no. While I applaud what they are trying to do...it just doesn't seem to fit.

I know for myself that when I started drinking and taking drugs at an early age, it wasn't because I just didn't know how to say no. It was mainly because even at that young age, I was searching for a way to change how I was feeling. You could have given me a list of 1000 "cool" ways to say no...my answer would always have been yes.

Things You Didn’t Do Because You Got High

If you sit and think of all the things that you were going to do but didn't do because you got high/drunk...you would probably make yourself sick. It's safe to say that when we were actively addicted there were plenty of responsibilities that we talked ourselves right out of for one reason...because we got high.

Luckily we don't have to list all of our shirked responsibilities, I found a video from back in the day that will do it for us.

Ahhhh…Vacation Time

I just wanted to take a minute to inform everyone and anyone that cares...I'm on vacation.

My husband and I are taking the little guy to Disney for the first time. Super excited and relieved because all of us in the house really need a vacation.

The site will not be updated while I'm gone. Any comments that need to be moderated won't be until I return in a week.

So when you don't hear from me for a little while don't fret - I'll be returning soon.

Take Care

Erin

Addiction Recovery: Delaying The Inevitable

Recently I had written a post regarding Suboxone being coined a wonder drug and what my thoughts are on that subject. I have had some interesting responses to this post but one stuck out in particular.

It was about someone who has bought Suboxone off the street to be used when he is coming off a long binge of Oxycontin use. The Suboxone helps avoid the cravings and the withdrawal symptoms. This got me thinking about how my thoughts about addiction have changed over time.