Well if you’ve been paying attention at all to my ramblings you know that I have not really found religion in my addiction recovery. I have however grown a greater sense of spirituality in my addiction recovery.
For me, this spirituality is sometimes intertwined with a belief in god and other times…not so much. But I just wanted to share with you a belief that I have formed in my recovery and share with you something that just made it even stronger.
I feel that everyone is born a pure spirit or soul. This spirit is so pure that it shines like a light inside of us all. I don’t go for that original sin stuff that would lead us to believe that we are born with a mark already on our souls. I believe our souls are new and shining and pure.
Our main goals in life should be to keep that light lit inside all of us. We have to guard it from stuff that is going to crap it all up. Like, oh I don’t know…using drugs everyday. Stuff like that.
I also don’t believe that once your spirit is dimmed it has to stay that way. Not at all, you can always get back on track with keeping it lit. It just takes work.
What got me thinking about my belief was a comment on Discovering Recovering‘s site. The comment was left by Jay. The post was about not understanding or being able to accept god (I can identify there) and the comment that was made went on to explain a story.
It’s a Kabbalist story that says: In the beginning, there was God and there was the schechinah. God made a clay vessel to contain the schechinah, and it broke, shattering the divine spirit into innumerable pieces. In that instant, God created the world and all human beings, so that each of us could hold one of those pieces of schechinah.
This fits in so well with what my beliefs are about our spirits that I thought I would retell the story on my site. By keeping our own spirits shining in ourselves, we in turn are helping others keep theirs shining. Kind of like helping others by helping ourselves…sound familiar?
Protecting our spirit is not an easy thing, as most of us have come to realize. It definitely takes some work and from time to time we can find ourselves caught in a bad way where it is almost impossible for our spirits to shine. Like, I don’t know…stuffing drugs up my nose everyday.
Obviously I don’t believe that there is an actual light inside of my body but it’s a great way of explaining my belief. I am the protector of my spirit. I am responsible for keeping it safe, nurturing it, and helping it grow stronger. By doing that in myself I will be helping others as well.