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Breaking Up with My Addiction

September 8, 2011 — 2 Comments

Sponsors tell you that writing things down helps, to journal the fight against addiction, having a record, getting things off your chest;  this is another twist to doing that and I must say I like it.

Actor Colin Farrell has said that he has given up cigarettes but here is the interesting part: he wrote a break up letter to tobacco on the last day he would smoke.

I like it. Maybe this would be a fruitful exercise. Having journals of my addiction recovery has served to help me keep it together sometimes when I can see the signs of the spiral; isolation, negative thoughts etc. There have been times when I look back at my journals and I can see clearly step by step what happened whenever I had a relapse or even how I saw it coming and avoided falling into old destructive behaviors.

Because I am living on the upside, happy go lucky side of things,  I decided I would write a humorous short poem to say I am done with you. (I am not a good poet so feel free to laugh at me, I am!)

Good bye Drugs and Alternate Reality

You reached for me, I reached for you,

you promised fullness but left me dull,

there is nothing here for you anymore,

I quit, I am done, It’s no more fun.

Don’t want to think of what you have done.

I am going far and won’t come close

to the likes of you,

no more, no more.

Where I Am NowJanuary 26th will be my one year anniversary of being in recovery. As far as I’m concerned, this has been the best year of my life. Sure, it wasn’t the funnest, the easiest, or the most peaceful year. But as far as my well being is concerned, this has been my most productive year ever.

My first year in addiction recovery has been filled with many ups and downs, many ebbs and flows, many steps forward…and a couple of steps back. What is the most important thing I’ve learned? Stumble don’t fall. Continue Reading…