Since I am trying to get used to being a more open and honest person I decided to join a few online groups. I have been making posts and replying to other peoples posts. What I am finding kind of shocking is the amount of people out there who are staying clean by white knuckling it.
If I left it up to my willpower alone I don’t think that I would be very successful in my recovery from addiction. One of the hardest things to do is change your behaviors and your way of thinking but it is also the most important. Addictive thinking doesn’t just go away because you stop using a drug. I can tell you that first hand.
I have talked to a lot of people who had tried recovery on their own, with no support…it didn’t work. It may have seemed like it was working for a while but then inevitably they went back to using drugs or drinking. I think the reason is that quiting the actual substance that you are using, while hard, is not impossible by yourself. It is the staying off of the substance that is the tricky part.
When I wrote up my story on this site it really showed how many times I had started and stopped different substances. It was a behavior that I repeated over and over again for about 15 years. I would get myself straightened out and on the right path and then just like that I would be spiraling back down towards drug addiction again.
This time is different. I decided not to white knuckle it but rather take the advice of the winners in recovery. I am doing what the winners do and so far I am pretty successful at it. There are others out there that have a little more experience than I do and this time I am willing to use their experience as a tool in my own recovery.