We’re Only As Sick As Our Secrets

March 18, 2010 — 6 Comments

We’ve all heard this saying in addiction recovery that we’re only as sick as our secrets. This is something that I think holds 100% truth.

I had explained a couple of weeks ago that my sibling that was in recovery was now in active addiction again. He has now once again broke the news to my parents that he is in fact back on drugs and that all of the money that they put up for him to get off drugs the last time has essentially been for nothing.

What I’ve learned about my family during the last few days is that they try to keep so many secrets. It’s exhausting trying to keep up with who knows what and who should be kept in the dark. And then it hit me… we’re only as sick as our secrets.

I pretty much put my foot down this time telling my family that we aren’t going to play this secret game again. We all need to start being open and honest about our problems. I told them the benefit that I found in the past from living this way.

It’s almost like I got sucked back into a secretive way because I don’t want to be the one causing waves in the family. Well eff that. We are done with that.

Talking about things and sharing things is what make us ok. So I truly believe the saying we’re only as sick as our secrets and as of right now… my family is pretty sick.

6 responses to We’re Only As Sick As Our Secrets

  1. I cannot agree more about the secrets we keep. I am 12 months clean following a severe addiction to sleeping meds. Every single aspect of my life has been affected and I continue to deal with the professional, financial and the legal consequences of my addiction. Trust me, its bad and very complicated.

    Nevertheless, I often sit back now and look at my “old” life when I was dyfunctionally thriving in active addiction. No one knew I had a problem, let alone know it was a serious as it really was. The secrets stayed close to me and I would not confide in anyone to ensure the secrets stayed just that – secret.

    What a wonderful liberating feeling it is to finally free yourself from the secrets. You are to be highly commended for putting your foot down and demanding total honesty within your family. Its not easy- but hell, nothing about addiction and recovery is easy is it?

  2. Thank you so much for this reminder. It’s so easy to think secrets are harmless. But when I think about all of the secrets I hold onto, I realize how they rob my soul and my family of the real me.

    I think the key is to be able to realize that the REAL me is “okay”. That’s tough.

    Have a great day!

  3. hey erin,its Louie C!!! havent tlkd to u in a while. quick questions,maybe u can help me,im weening myslf off of suboxone,cuz i recently lost my job,thus i lost my insurance,thank god i have enough to ween off. heres what i plan to do,take 4mg for 7 days,then 2 mg for 7 days, then 1mg for seven days,then finally 1mg every other for 14 days. if u have any suggestions that would be fantastic. i know im gonna feel shitty for a while,but anything i can buy to help ease it all? i heard that vitamin b complex helps cuz its a natural anti-depressant. please, please get back,either here or email me at locallew@verizon.net. thanks babe.

  4. Erin, you rock!

    Seriously, for sharing the courage it took to take the steps you did…for taking the leap. Although you’ve known me for a year or 3 now I don’t think we ever had the discussion that I’m also a friend of Bill’s and I consider you a friend. I’m sooooooo happy that you’ve begun the journey of recovery. Don’t quit until the miracle happens.

    – Sean

  5. the funny thing is…when you dont have any..you create pandamonium…non belief and trust issues,your own of coarse..a reflection for i am a beautiful man to me and i trust in what im doing

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